we were talking about the mrt suicide incident during break today and i really have a lot of thoughts going on in me. (no offence to anyone though..) how can a person ever bear to end his/ her own life like this? i know its their lives but dont they ever think of their family members or the people around them after they die? so many people yearn to live, to be healthy like how they are. if they're suffering from a terminal disease, its understandable cause i know it takes a lot of courage to undergo treatments. but why die when you're well and alive? and think of the poor train driver. can you imagine if you're the one whose behind the wheels and you cant stop your vehicle in time to save that person? just imagine the trauma and the guilt that the driver'll face for the rest of his life. maybe i'll never understand what these people are really thinking.. but i really hope that people will never end their lives anymore. you only have one chance to live as who you are now.. cherish it, people.

& &, im really sorry to someoneS okays. like what ive always said, i dont need love to complete my puzzle of life. *all i need is one person* (=
i dont want to hurt anyone anymore and ive already promised myself that. i know myself since the day i was born, i know im those kind of people who can never make things last. and its not that i dont have confidence in other people, i dont have the confidence in myself, okays? i know you're very good to me but sometimes, it takes more than just being good/ nice to someone. im really sorry okays, dont waste your time on me...
& ive been thinking since ystd.. would you even realise it if im gone from this place one day? or will it take you forever to realise it? if i tell you im leaving this place, what will you say? ):
& i kind of feel uncomfortable about some things nw. )=

shall stop here for today.. time for PI. )=
I LOVE MY BEST FRIEND! (:

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